PTSD is a chronic illness and depending on your history, it might never be gone completely. Especially if that trauma was ongoing and happened young, before your brain is fully formed. And thats pretty much any age under 25.
25!? Yeah.
So the reason the shit that happened when you were a pre-teen or a teenager? That’s why it’s still not ok.
That’s why you might not be experiencing your expected results from therapy, because it’s not enough to treat your trauma as though you are/were an adult.Popular theory states that it’s only in early childhood development that ongoing trauma or abuse* forces physical and permanent changes in the brain, because it’s still forming.
But the fact is that human brains aren’t fully formed until adulthood
(which can be between 18 and 25 – the same reason you can’t get car insurance till then and why they say you shouldn’t drink) and this extreme trauma forces the brain into what is essentially a ‘reset’ state, where it then adapts to the environment of constant abuse and is harmed in exactly the same way.
(*Abuse can be physical, sexual, emotional, mental, or environmental (neglect, emotional neglect etc), and/or being witness to extreme ongoing abuse of someone else.)So what’s the damage?
Well there is a few things that happen.
Trauma affects what children anticipate and focus on (y’all are children till you’re adults in terms of brains remember), and how you can view and understand the information that you receive.
Changes in how you perceive threats because of trauma end up being expressed in how you think, feel, behave and even how you regulate your biological systems.
This presents in problems with
- self regulation (being able to start or stop doing something when you think you should, overeating or over-doing anything really is a good example of this)
- aggression against themselves and others
- problems with attention and dissociation
- physical problems (I will expand upon this later)
- difficulties in self concept (who am I, what am I, believing you have worth, believing you are a person, etc)
- and the capacity to negotiate satisfactory interpersonal relationships. (Why do I keep ending up in abusive relationships, why can’t I make friends or connect with people etc)
Trauma is so powerful because the amygdala starts functioning almost immediately after birth; children rapidly are able to experience fear and assess danger. Babies get scared even when they can’t think properly because of this.
Basically, early abuse and neglect can affect the development of the limbic system which makes individuals with traumatic histories to become highly sensitive to sensory input, which is known as hypervigilance.
Your amigdala is part of the limbic system that controls instinct, your “lizard brain” that keeps you safe and controls your “fight, flight, freeze, or feign” instinct. (The amigdala and the limbic system are so heavily affected by this hypervigilance that I am going to write a whole nother post just on it’s effects on the body.)
SO. We now know PTSD from your developmental years is more damaging than if the same abuse occured later in life.
That’s why regular therapy focusing only on CBT might not be enough, that’s why you might not be fully recovered when you feel like you should be. And there are heaps of us with this shit. So you’re not alone, and now that we know why, we’re going to get through it.
I’m capping this off with some important notes:
- ongoing abuse of any kind between the ages of ‘born’ and 25 will result in the same physiological and mental damage as abuse as a child
- Abuse can be emotional, physical, sexual, or environmental. It can be from a caregiver or from a relationship you chose to enter. Abuse is abuse is abuse and it affects us profoundly.
- Many of you reading this might actually have been told (like me) that because of your PTSD symptoms you must have also experienced abuse that you don’t remember as a small child. This is not necessarily true.
(NOTE: for some people it might be true as well. do not use this to invalidate people or i will come for you. This part honestly is here because you have no idea how relieved I am to know that there doesn’t have to be more horrible memories lurking in my head)- Trauma affects our ability to process information, to retain information, and to process threats. This means that sometimes everything is a threat (hypervigilance) and sometimes we don’t know what is abusive because that’s our normal.
- Being constantly surrounded by potential threats results in hypervigilance. Hypervigilance is when you are so hyperaroused (sensory arousal not sexual) that you are trying to anticipate the reactions and read the emotions of the people you interact with to be prepared and stay safe. It is constantly being in a crisis state, and it is exhausting. You know when you’re so wired you’re trying to see out the back of your head and you can hear which room your neighbour is walking to? That.
- This shit makes you physically sick. Asthma, allergies, immune disorders, fibro, lupus, chronic fatigue, osteoarthritis, osteoperosis, gastrointestinal disorders, migrane, vertigo, vomiting and constant nausea are some of the possible physical symptoms.
- Mental health wise you get depression, anxiety, self harm, dissasociative disorders, and DID.
That’s it for my intro to PTSD from trauma during developmental years. Which I need to find a shorter name for.
Next up I’ll be discussing the physical changes that this trauma causes in the brain, and how it affects our bodies.
Stay safe,
Hollow.…oh. Right. I mean—yeah.
Tag: abuse
When You’re Autistic, Abuse Is Considered Love – The Establishment
I won’t stay silent anymore. Please help me raise $600 after leaving my abusive partner of 5 years
As soon as I left my partner, he texted my therapist saying I was suicidal which was a blatant lie and manipulation, and an attempt to have me unjustly hospitalized and silenced. I know I can live without him, and that’s why I left. I’m worried about financial fallout, but that’s not worth the pain I’ve endured for 5 years because I needed to survive.
This wasn’t my first abusive relationship, but I will make this my last one. Never again.
Please help if you can.
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Thanks so much for spreading this and supporting me.
i’m reading why does he do that and this last part has been ON FIRE, i am hollering in my house.
while i’m talking about this book again i should mention that, since it’s an abuse resource, Why Does He Do That is available to read for free as a pdf, and i’d highly recommend it.
Shoutout to the survivors of hidden, unconventional, or non-blatant abuse.
To those whose abusers constantly threatened but rarely acted on their words.
To those whose abusers would treat them well at times.
To those whose abusers would tell them the abuse was “for the best”, “out of love”, or “in your best interest”.
To those whose abusers told them the abuse was just a “joke”, or “prank” or “game”.
To those whose abusers would stop talking to them as a form of punishment.
To those whose abusers would still feed and shelter them, yet completely emotionally neglect them.
To those whose abusers gaslighted them into believing the abuse never happened.
To those whose abusers used uncommon techniques or methods to hurt them.
To those whose abuse was swept under the rug because it was ‘unbelievable’ or ‘impossible’.
To those who do not have proof of the abuse they endured.
Have you always believed the abuse was actually normal parenting? Me too. Do you feel like you’re making it up, or exaggerating stuff? Me too.
Guess what? Those are lies. Your abuse is valid. Your pain is valid. You are not fake. You are not alone.
Medicaid Assisted Living Services: Improved Federal Oversight of Beneficiary Health and Welfare is Needed
Content Note: institutionalization, violence
“More than half of the 48 states providing [Medicaid assisted living] services couldn’t tell us the number or nature of critical incidents in assisted living facilities.”
Personally, it has taken me 47 years to stop calling people who are mean to you ‘in love’ with you. It took a long time because I think that as little girls we are conditioned to believe that cruelty and love somehow have a connection and that is like the sort of era that we need to evolve out of.
while I’m offering opinions let me just add this one, in response to some hand-wringing I read earlier today:
Yes, people should have the opportunity to rehabilitate and redeem themselves and make themselves better people after they have done wrong, but that sure doesn’t mean that after an “appropriate” period of contrition and remorse perpetrators should be handed back the positions of power and influence that they used to abuse people in the first place. Fuck that. Fuck no. Fling that notion directly into the sun and do not give these men the ability to abuse people again no matter how sad and sorry they are.
Commissions- Updated
Hi! My name is Erica “Bro” y Media or Doddle and I know have another post going around with my commissions but I am reposting since it is slowing down and i’m redo my pricing and just everything about it in general. I am also opening up my nude commissions too. Some back story about this, I am trying to move out of a abusive home life and I am trying to stay out of FSSW too because it been demetimed to my mental health and I get sick often – partly due to the stress of being the peacekeeper, my school and medical debt and my house is not the best living contiondtion. I am a really disabled mentally, physically and neuoguailly mix race latin and southeast native american and it is really hard for me to keep and hold down regular jobs along with the fact a lot of people will not hire me due to reasons listed before and where I live at not many people want to hire from due to the reapation it has, along with the fact several of my past abusers and school bullies who assaulted me work or visit these places too. Also it been really hard to save money because I have to buy my own goeriecies/food, help my parents out or get my money stolen, and I have to keep up with my own bills since my parents are also struggling and I am the only one out of my siblings who actually working some at the moment. I Have a lot of debt from quitting school and I owe the school over a thousand (1,000+) for quitting and them starting the legal process to get their money back – even though I do not have any money. I also owe the hospital over two-thousand dollars (2,000+) due to finally getting my asthma deconized and I was in and out of the hospital with bronchitis and monochitas from may till just last month and I am getting sick again. My paypal is paypal.me/ericamedia and my wishlist links is here (x) These are my commissions at the moment, I might some more later!
Astrology – These tend to take a while to complete. I been studying astrology since i was young and started taking it completely serious within the last couple of years and I am extremely knowledgeable about many subjects about the stars and it been my special interstants on and off all of my life really. I take this very serious and I study and stay a student every change I can
Full Natal Charts – Forty plus dollars ($40+) These are very limited and they take me a WHILE to completely. They are extremely detailed and I try to go over everything I can with these.
General Full Natal Charts – Twenty-five dollars ($25) These are not as limited as the FULL full natal charts as they are not AS detailed as them. They are general descriptions of everything I see in your natal chart.
“First Glances” – Fifthteen dollars ($15) This one is for three (3) to five (5) aspects, signs, houses, or planets you can pick them out or you can let me pick out the ones I see espilley for uniqueness if you want. These are detailed and do not take me as long to completely, if you want to know about more than five (5) aspects but do not want a full natal chart you can add on more aspects for two-fifty an aspect ($2.50)
Mupitable Tranists – Twenty to Twenty-Five Dollars ($20-25) I do six (6) max for these as I said astrology is my passion but it takes a while to complete, but with the transits I have to completely fast, these are limited too.
Some Transitions – Ten dollars ($10) I do three (3) max for these and the above goes with this one. Not as limited as the Mupitabled.
Compatibility – Twenty-five dollars ($25) These are not as detailed as my others, I love to do compatibility but at the same time I can not fully encouraged theses because a lot of newbies and people not as serious into astrology take them a bit too serious so I leave these more general. These can be good for parents-children, siblings, romantic and planctioc pattereans, even celebrities because let’s admit it, it’s fun to see!
Tarot Readings – I admit I am still a newbie to Tarots but I put my all in it. I love doing tarot readings but they can be draining, I offer my tarots as cheap as I can!
One (1) Card Readings – A dollar fifty ($1.50)
Three (3) Card Readings – ten dollars ($1-)
Six (6) Card Readings – fifthteen dollars ($15)
Art Commissions – I do not have a lot of my recent work and I admit I am a bit slower with my art commissions than I like to be so I only offer clean linework and simple colorings. I am good with fashion models, simple simple simple scenes, some potatoes
Full Body Clean Sketches – Five ($5)
Full Body Simple Colored – Ten ($10)
Poritions, Simple – fifthteen ($15)
Specialized Readings – Vary, direct message me and we can talk and figure it out!
Nudes – I am going to admit, I hate these and I charge extra due to this being my main. I also do not do custom clips or videos, only role-playing and pictures because I do not have the wifi or ability to do anything else. I expect the full amount of money to be taken in account with these.
Role-Playings- I often go over with these – Fifthteen minutes (15) -thirty (3$30) dollars
Twenty minutes (20) – forty ($40) dollars
Thirty minutes (30) – sixty ($60) dollars
Custom pictures – I do not have many props or outfits. I charge the minual of six ($6) a piece
Ookkkaaayyy so I havnt been getting any and im trying to complete some Full Natal charts but my mental health is kicking my ass plus im trying o sabe money for moving out n followint a dream so some more things –
I am NO LONGER doing full natal charts, they been taking too long n i got a couple rn
For Sexwork i am selling panties, im selling live streams (only durning the day Monday thur Friday ), i will do phone sex, i will littertly do anything for money right now and yes i will even do ddlg but i charge extra!
I am selling cloths they all the ugly retro gay stuff bc lets admjt it i have terrisble taste in clothes but most r lightly worn n brought from thirft shops n 2nd hand stores or hand me downs im abt to set up a posh me so yea! Please reblog you ill littertly be helping me surrive and possiable get a job that I can acuttlt do and get out of sw and acuttlt can live a decent life please!
Also please do not send me money thur my paypal if you commisioning me pls dm me first so I can know first!
[Text: Maddie Rose
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One of the all-time-scariest suggestions I see from people downplaying housing costs is the idea that you should live with a partner. Around new york where I’m from, housing costs are so high that people often intentionally enter relationships quickly and then rush to move in together. I’ve seen so many relationships collapse from this pressure, from taking a step the relationship was not at all ready for. Relationships fall apart, people leave.
But more than that, I’ve seen people stay. I’ve seen people in toxic relationships, abusive relationships, and violent relationships stay because there was nowhere to go until they had another partner to move in with. I’ve seen battered women hopping from shitty boyfriend to shitty boyfriend, pretending to love them and that everything is okay because it’s the only way to afford half a room.
Minimum wage crises are domestic violence crises. Housing crises are domestic violence crises. You can’t ask"why don’t they split a room if it’s too costly" if you also ask “why didn’t she just leave”]
Urocyon's Jaunts 2.0 
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