
This!!!! A thousand times this!!!!

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And for the boys, no not wanting it doesn’t make you gay, less of a man, or anything to that effect, you’re allowed to say no too, and when she says “am I just not hot enoughy for you” that is an attempt to guilt you into sex.
Reblogging for IMPORTANT addition.
You are allowed to only sleep with people you like & WHEN you want to. Don’t let anyone else tell you different, ever.
And girls (/those raised as girls), you’re taught that if a man is not in the mood for sex or is not able to orgasm, it’s because you’re not good enough. That’s not at all true! Don’t end up doing what wynterroseskye said above because of insecurity.
That’s not at ALL something you need to repent for. If people use others exploring their identities as ‘proof’ that certain identities are ‘fake’ then that’s on them, never on you. You should never feel like you have to be 100% sure and committed to explore an identity – how are you supposed to know what feels right if you don’t get to try things? How are you supposed to predict what new identities and ways of being you may discover fit you better?
Sometimes people think they might be trans but then discover that they’re cis. Sometimes people think they might be trans but then discover that they’re a different type of trans than they thought. Sometimes people’s identities evolve and change over time, and while they may identify as previously having been one thing they feel that they changed into another. Investigating your feelings and going with what seems to fit is never ever something to feel bad about.
– Mod Rabbit
Despair is acceptable. Apathy is not.
Fear is acceptable. Apathy is not.
Exhaustion is acceptable. Apathy is not.
Actively telling people that their hope is worthless and we’re all fucked so why even bother, is actively harmful and further enables those who are trying to do us harm. Why are you empowering those people? Why are you doing their job for them?
Look, I get it. I’m one more symbolic goosestep away from having a complete mental breakdown. I honestly just want to lay down and cry and let the darkness take me at this point. But I can’t. I fucking can’t because I have a duty and a responsibility as a human being to burn as hard and bright as I possibly can in the hopes that it does matter and that it will matter and that sometime soon, things will get better. If not for me, then for the generations to come.
No one says these things thinking it will be easy. It is not easy. Do not mistake my hope for naivety. I know it will be hard, I know it will hurt. But I have weighed the cost of apathy and it is a price too high to pay.
Self care, get professional help, learn to use your rage and fear as a source of power instead of a cause of stagnation. And fucking get your head in the game because it’s going to take all of us to recover from this.
The sun will still keep rising long after we’re gone as a species. That doesn’t mean we shouldn’t rise to meet it.
(#hope is a survival mechanism #don’t let anyone take that from you #hopepunk #mental health mention)
sex is not supposed to be about what you can tolerate!!!!! sex is supposed to be about what you genuinely want and enjoy!!!!! and if you’re traumatized and/or not straight, believe me, I know it’s not that simple to figure out what it is that you actually want and enjoy.
you’re not a bad person if you do something that you don’t particularly enjoy because, for example, it makes your partner happy, but always remember: you have no obligation to engage in sexual activities that you don’t fully like and enjoy.
and you don’t ever, ever need to justify that – if your partner has an issue with “It makes me kind of uncomfortable” or “I don’t really like it”, then that person does not deserve a moment of your time, in or outside of the bedroom. you don’t have to prove yourself to anyone; you don’t have to meet anyone’s standards of acceptable vs. unacceptable activity (or lack thereof); you don’t have to force yourself to be comfortable with something because of any perceived political connotations of performing or refusing that act.
saying yes because you feel guilty about saying no is not consent. saying yes because you’re scared of what will happen if you say no is not consent. saying yes because you figure you might as well just endure it is not consent. sex ed on here and elsewhere doesn’t give a single shit about traumatized people and I wish someone had told me all of this a lot sooner.
i feel like the most important piece of wisdom i can impart on teenagers is that no one–no one–knows what the fuck they’re doing
my brother is 26 years old, makes $200k a year, and just bought a house with his fiance. he’s the success story you hear about but never actually meet in person, but it all happened by accident. he wanted to go to college for clarinet performance, but he got rejected from all the top schools. so he decided to major in physics instead, and then went on to get a doctorate to put off being an adult for a few more years. but then he ended up dropping out halfway through the program and accepting a job with google as a software engineer. so to reiterate: my brother majored in something he was not interested in, and then he got a job that had nothing to do with his degree.
he isn’t successful because he had some master plan he followed, he just stumbled around blindly until something worked out. and that’s what we’re all doing–i majored in political science and now i do customer service for a company that makes industrial-sized gas detection monitors. the marketing director at my company has a degree in biology, and my mom has an MBA and works at a middle school. no one knows what they’re doing, we’re all just trying different things until something works out.
so if you don’t have a plan, that’s fine. most of us don’t. and even those of us who do, don’t usually end up doing the thing they thought they would. it’s okay to relax and let life carry you wherever it’s gonna carry you. because even though a lot of us don’t end up doing the thing we wanted, most of us end up happy anyway.
I’ve been thinking about this post since I made it a few hours ago, and I realized that I literally don’t know anyone who’s doing what they thought they’d be doing at this point in their life.
I know a girl that has a degree in neuroscience and works in a restaurant (and makes quite a bit more money than I do, might I add), and a guy who wanted to be a parole officer but is now a security guard. I know people who wanted to be lawyers but ended up not having the grades for law school. I have a friend who’s 24 and just finished her bachelor’s, and two friends who decided to go to grad school because the idea of joining the adult world terrified them.When I was seventeen, I was 100% sure that I was going to get a job as a bureaucrat and save the world. When I was a 21-year-old recent college grad, I found out that it’s impossible to get a government job unless you know someone. So I gave up and found something else. I know my teenage self would be disappointed if she could see where I’m at, but you know what? I don’t care. Because teenage me was an idiot. She didn’t know anything about the world or how it worked, and she couldn’t have possibly predicted the curveballs that life would throw at her. And because I don’t know a single person who’s doing the thing they wanted to do when they were teenagers.
I know a thousand people who aren’t where they thought they’d be, and zero people who are following the path they set out for themselves. All of us are confused and all of us are scared, and it’s okay if you are too.
Honestly thank u, i needed to hear this again
Looking back at my closest friends in college, only one is doing exactly what she thought she’d be doing, and she’s considering changing career paths.
Looking at the most successful and happiest people I know, they’ve all gone through serious career changes before the age of 30. Most of them have done crazy things like cross-country moves or quitting a successful career to try something new.
Wow, okay.
I know that there are autistic people who cannot, presently, communicate in a way that we know how to understand well.
I have never and will never say that autism isn’t a disability or that no one can be profoundly disabled by autism. Never. I do not know who you think I am, but I am not one of those people. A perusal of my blog on the topics of autism or disability would’ve told you that. I consider myself disabled by autism, and most of the autistic people I know do.
I know that there are completely non-speaking people. Many of them are able to use other methods of communication, like AAC devices, letter boards, ASL, or sounds and gestures. Some are not.
I know that there are autistic people who we have not found an effective way to communicate with yet.
The key word there is “yet.” When I say “we can do better for non-verbal autistic people,” what I mean is that I consider us generally–the advocacy world, the research world–to be morally bound to keep looking for communication methods that could help those people and keep trying to understand what their specific obstacles are and how to work with them.
“Some people just can’t communicate” doesn’t cut it. We have not even come close to a situation in which all non-speaking people have access to AAC if they need it (about half of non-speaking adults do not), and in which most researchers and clinicians take seriously the capacity of many non-speaking/non-verbal people to think and communicate if their specific challenges and needs can be understood and met, or autistic-reported issues that may impact communication ability like movement disorders, exposure anxiety, and auditory processing disorder. Though oral motor apraxia is one thing that is starting to be taken seriously as a common barrier to speech in autistic people.
It’s not that you personally just aren’t trying hard enough! But when people close to a non-speaking person have already decided, or been told and believed, “this person does not communicate,” when this is a pervasive prejudice about non-speaking and non-verbal people, that puts you at risk of not seeing genuine attempts at communication as communication.
“Totally non-vocal” does not mean non-communicative.
I don’t know if you know, but every year for the past couple of years now, a tweet chat called #AutINSAR (#AutIMFAR in 2017) has been held during INSAR, which is the biggest annual conference on current autism research, to put autistic people directly in touch with researchers to talk about research priorities and goals. And something that always tops the list of priorities that autistic people wish research would pursue is better and more available AAC, and how best to enable people with the most intense communication challenges.
Instead of continuing to throw millions and millions of dollars at trying to make mice autistic.
That is what I mean when I say “We can do better for non-verbal autistic people.”
Not that it is going to be easy or magical or somehow we will be able to turn every non-speaking person into someone who can communicate conventionally and articulately.
But we can do better than writing off non-verbal people as “just can’t communicate,” and we need to.
Wow, anon is narrow minded and ableist as hell. They need to listen to more autistic people.
“When I say “we can do better for non-verbal autistic people,” what I mean is that I consider us generally–the advocacy world, the research world–to be morally bound to keep looking for communication methods that could help those people and keep trying to understand what their specific obstacles are and how to work with them.”
“Some people just can’t communicate” doesn’t cut it"
The thing is that autism is a HUGE and nonspecific thing. Within that large umbrella, we have people ranging from some of the most “successful” in history in their area of interest, to people who struggle so hard with the basics of life that they don’t have the spoons left over for much else.
For many of us, autism isn’t so much the disability but the explanation for why specific issues are happening. Autism is a complex thing. It gives me a lively, quick brain that makes leaps other people don’t seem to make very well… and makes it a lot harder for me to deal with things that other people deal with automatically. Autism isn’t the “problem”… sensory integration is, executive function is, sleep disorder, difficulty with social interaction when I’m tired, anxiety… We treat the problems, but I would not trade the way I think for ANYTHING to be “normal”. I don’t want normal, I just want to get enough sleep and not feel like I’m going to jump out of my skin.
And I have a kid who struggles moment to moment to communicate due to a specific chromosome issue that also has a ton of factors in common with autism, and the autistic part isn’t the problem, it’s the fact that her mitochondria are iffy at best and not working efficiently and that impacts her language severely, but we’re able to actually treat it, so she has about 500x the vocabulary we expected based on research available 13 years ago when she was diagnosed. (I do not exaggerate here, she was expected to have 5-15 words, and has thousands, lack of language is characteristic of her syndrome, until we figured out that her syndrome was causing a CoQ10 deficiency and treated that.)
We’re not trying to make her not-autistic, we’re trying to ease the parts that make her frustrated, like not being able to say what she wants to say. We’ve used sign, AAC on an IPAD, speech, picture exchange, object exchange, echolalia. I said when she was a baby that I would learn semaphore if that’s what it took to help her communicate. When it comes down to it we can always devolve to choice hands (Do you want X *hold out right hand* or something else *hold out left hand*).
We can work with the other issues that can come up with personal care. We can work with making sure her clothes don’t hurt (It’s helpful having a mom with sensory issues, I don’t get her anything that feels “bad” to me) and find her alternative strategies to head banging, just as I look for alternative strategies for me to sticking ear plugs in and never leaving the house.
I know a number of people who just don’t use speech much. But MOST can learn to communicate on some level, with the right tools. I know a child who was COMPLETELY nonverbal, and they tried a method that proved that not only was she capable of communication, but that she already knew how to read, that she thought books were treasures, and a host of other things that they simply hadn’t managed to access yet until they hit on a method that allowed her to successfully navigate.
I am such an evangelist for IPads for autistic kids. There’s a huge variety of communication software out there, and using it actually helped bridge the gap to speech for my own kid, but it can be a complete communication solution with the right professional support. It can also be a bridge for kids to have more control over their lives, the shows they watch, the music they listen to. They’re literally designed to be easy enough for a baby to use, and to watch a kid who has struggled with literally everything in her life quickly navigate through to specific shows, specific points in a show, back to communication software, into a game program, etc… It’s an immediately rewarding, very specific thing that is THEIRS in a world which is usually not set up for them.
So I’m actually going to push back on the proposition that autism is a “huge and non-specific” thing. I really don’t think that it is. Autism has diagnostic criteria (imperfect as I think they are), and it has widely recognized commonalities in people across the spectrum. Research is starting to bear out what autistic people have been reporting for a long time in regards to core processing differences involved in autism.
And also on the implied dichotomy between people who are successful in pursuing their interests and people who really struggle with the basics of life.
Many of us are BOTH of those things. We may be both very successful at our areas of interest, and significantly disabled.
I’ve made this point before, but…Einstein was reputed to occasionally forget to wear pants to class. Scientist Henry Cavendish was so beset by what I’d guess was probably severe exposure anxiety that he had a private staircase built in his house so he’d never have to encounter another person coming up or down the stairs. If he hadn’t just happened to come from an incredibly wealthy family, he would have led a much more constrained life. (This story is in Steve Silberman’s book NeuroTribes.)
Mozart literally died in a gutter, in his 30′s.
Anthony Hopkins is widely recognized as one of the most brilliant actors of our time, and he has struggled hugely with alcoholism (more common than widely acknowledged in the autistic community). Daryl Hannah had to semi-retire from acting and withdraw from Hollywood suffering from autistic burnout several years ago.
Are there autistic people who likely will never be conventionally successful in the ways our society defines successful because of their disabilities? Yes.
But research has also found that, on average, people diagnosed with less “severe” forms of autism do not struggle less in adulthood than people diagnosed with more severe forms. And that a great deal of any given autistic person’s well-being has more to do with social support than with “severity” of their given autistic traits.
It’s only relatively recently that niche interests are even beginning to be recognized as strengths rather than pathology by the clinical world. (Like, check out the date on that article.)
Places like Creative Growth Art Center are not widespread and obviously not a panacea for complex communication needs, but can provide critical support for the talents of people who would be called severely disabled in many contexts.
Autism for me is both the disability, and the explanation for a lot of things in my life. I cannot say “autism isn’t the problem, sensory processing is” because sensory processing differences are intrinsic to autism for me. (And also I don’t believe in playing moral whack-a-mole like that. People with major sensory processing differences deserve to not have those treated as the enemy, either.) Autism isn’t just the way I think; it is all of the ways I interface with the world, and many of those ways disable me, but many of them are also very contextually dependent. If someone tried to say “we don’t want to make you non-autistic, we just want to treat your sensory processing difficulties,” that…doesn’t work. Like I’d find that really disingenuous, because those are not separable things for me.
I’m a professional theater artist; I’m kind of actually successful in my career! I’m also sick because I interacted with people too much on Saturday. Both of those things are autism. We aren’t people who have interests that can make us successful or people with substantive disabilities without there being any real connection between those things; we are very often both, with the very same traits having the potential to be enabling or disabling depending on context and the demands of our environment.
There is a difference, I think, between “fighting ableism because it’s an axis of oppression” and “fighting it because you genuinely believe a diversity of perspectives on the world is a good thing”.
The essence of ableism, to me, is insistence that there’s only one way to be a person. Real people can walk. Real people can communicate verbally. Real people learn in X way and have no trouble integrating unfamiliar information. Ballastexistenz wrote that ableism is integral to every other kind of oppression, and I find that powerfully true. Oppression is founded on the principle that marginalized groups are doing Person wrong. Blacks are animals, gays are perverts, women are hysterical. Another blogger noted recently that anti-oppression work can’t just “pass the unperson ball” – it has to deflate it. And too much anti-oppression rhetoric, I think, is focused on merely passing.
Something I see a lot: “It’s okay for autistic people to have trouble with SJ concepts, because their brains aren’t wired that way. But neurotypicals have no excuse.” That’s…colossally missing the point. It’s putting the symbol before the substance in a big and dangerous way. Rather than reconsidering the standards of correct thought, it’s saying that certain groups, by virtue of being sufficiently marginalized, can be excepted from those standards. Instead of achieving a curb-cut effect, wherein accommodations for the disabled end up benefiting everyone, it sets up yet another binary.
And neurotypical vs. neurodivergent is not a binary. Certain clusters of traits are indisputably one or the other, sure, but there are far too many edge cases for it to be simple. What do you call a person who fits no diagnostic criteria, who isn’t actually disabled in any meaningful way, but whose worldview orbits a fundamentally different axis than most people’s? If you’re anti-SJ, you might call them a special snowflake; if you’re SJ, an edgelord. I call them a person who in some ways has it harder than quantifiably disabled people. At least disability has a name and a tribe. Where do you fit in when you’re not clinically “neurodivergent” but just a person who thinks differently?
I struggled mightily with that before I knew I was autistic. But still, I eventually found a name for my strangeness. I’m lucky that way. Some people never do, and some people’s strangeness has no name. And their alienation is not any less tragic than that of “officially” neurodivergent people. It isn’t.
Any anti-oppression effort that includes mockery of weird people is not one I want in on. Not just because it’s ableist to mock weirdnesses in disabled people. Because my anti-ableism includes a bedrock belief that different ways of experiencing the world aren’t just tolerable but actively good. It’s not something we put up with just because disabled people are oppressed.
This this this.
And it’s not just weirdness that gets labelled bad by ableism. It’s instability, it’s vulnerability, it’s change, it’s existing for yourself. All the fucking amazing things that make people who they are.This is what diversity as a value means to me.
Also, let me repeat this part: Anti-opression work shouldn’t just pass the unperson ball – it ought to deflate it. This is what I mean by “stop throwing each other under the bus.”
“Anti-opression work shouldn’t just pass the unperson ball – it ought to deflate it.”
oh look, it’s my problem with SJ
OK, I’m still annoyed about this, so here’s my partial refutation of a reblog: just because an abuser chooses you as their victim doesn’t mean you’re weak, period.
People who have been ridiculously strong have gotten into abusive relationships. Abuse can happen to anybody, and saying that abusers only choose weak people implies the opposite, and that so long as you’re “strong” you’re “safe” from them. This is not true. Please don’t spread that.
Sometimes abusers target the strong on purpose, because if you think of yourself as a strong person, you’re less likely to see it coming. This very nearly killed a dear friend of mine. We never saw it coming.
Even when you are legitimately suffering, it is your
responsibility not to be cruel to people who haven’t harmed you. When
you are miserable and feel like lashing out, it’s your responsibility to
control that impulse and to apologize when you fail to control that
impulse.Sometimes people think their suffering gives them the
right to be as vicious as they like, and that viciousness often lands on
the very people trying to offer them support and care. Someone who
cares about you and who is trying to support you isn’t there to be your
verbal (or physical) punching bag.There’s a difference between
consensual support – sharing your feelings with someone who has agreed
to listen – and taking out those feelings on someone by saying cruel
things to them, hurting them physically, or making them feel bad intentionally to excise your own
feelings.If you are the person offering care to someone who
is suffering, you are not required to accept cruelty in order to offer
support. You are entitled to set boundaries that keep you from being
hurt – even when the other person is also legitimately hurting.Sometimes
people who are suffering get overwhelmed and lash out, because it can be
hard to think of others sometimes when your own pain is great. But if
and when this happens, it needs to be acknowledged and apologized for,
and the person who did it needs to figure out how to stop themselves
from behaving like this in the future. The person who was lashed out at is also entitled to their own feelings about what happened; no one’s required to excuse or ignore their pain just because it was inflicted on impulse or by someone else who was in pain.No one gets a pass on
harming whoever’s nearest just because they themselves have been
harmed. If someone is consistently treating you with respect, it’s not
acceptable to force them to bear the brunt of pain you received
somewhere else. Find other ways to handle overwhelming feelings.
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