venting – Page 8 – Urocyon's Jaunts 2.0

I’m kind of irritated at needing to be up by 9 or so. (In about 4 hours.)

Got an e-mail notification again from Royal Mail, informing me that my parcel was out for delivery. As of around 8:30 a.m. yesterday. So, I hung around and kept an ear out for the door!

All day. Again.

It would have been exhausting and disruptive even if I’d been running on more than 5 hours of sleep then.

When there was no sign of them by about 3 p.m., I figured it was a bust. And I was tempted to try and get some more sleep, or even just put on headphones to help deal with the stress. But no, they have delivered something after 4 p.m. one time before. I did finally give up around 5. (And still haven’t slept.)

This is the second time in a row similar has happened, actually both of the last two times I have gotten tracking notification from Royal Mail. Neither time has it been delivered that day.

Why they even provide that tracking option if things don’t get delivered when they are supposedly scanned out for delivery, I have no idea.

But, I am certainly hoping whatever it is will show up on the usual round, and we’re pretty early on the route. (Generally sometime between 9 and 10.) Then maybe I can get back to sleep for a while and be halfway functional later in the day! But, we’ll see.

Yeah, this probably sounds very petty and disproportionate. It just gets so frustrating sometimes when you’re having to order a bunch of stuff because you can’t just get out and bring it home yourself. But then the hassles of actually trying to accept delivery–when you are reliably at home, because you can’t get out!–make you want to just not bother at all.

I also don’t deal that well with disruptions when I am not in bad enough health/low enough on spoons to keep me essentially housebound.

Here’s hoping the small post office branch up the street really is open until 8 p.m., as indicated doing a search. I really need to get up there to collect a package, and it’s already after 6.

But, I’m also dizzy enough from the weather that it would be dumb to even try to walk it without at least getting some electrolyte drink in and resting a little while to see if that helps. Extra frustrating with it only being a few blocks, but still.

I mean, worst case I could wait until tomorrow, but it’s something I should really have today. The forecast is also pretty much the same again.

Executive Function Master here put off ordering more BCPs to stave off Cramp Hell until the last minute, and took the last one yesterday 😬 Definitely not going to complain about the shipping time from that pharmacy, but yeah. One missed/late dose is enough to cause problems, from experience. So I would really prefer not needing to do that.

The option of getting something urgent delivered for pickup at the post office is usually handy. Sure, it requires a stroll up there, but at least you don’t have to worry about getting a redelivery slip instead of the package.

Not a great situation in general, but doing my best here. I’m also pissed off again about even needing to self-treat this problem, out of pocket with the extra hassle involved. But, it’s better than the main alternative of spending at least a week pretty much incapacitated (and with looping suicidal thoughts) every month.

Getting worked up about the bigger situation there really isn’t going to help right now, but jfc you would think somebody would see that’s an unacceptable state of affairs for literally anyone. Even if they don’t dare mention the suicidal thoughts from pain.

I finally got another order of the Cool Chile Co. tortillas today, and now I’m really hesitating to even open the padded envelope and look at them. Even though I was really looking forward to getting them.

With the couple of other orders from them placed earlyish in the day, they got here the next morning. Which is great when you’re dealing with fresh bread. (Suggesting on the bag that you should freeze them immediately, too.) Another day’s delay would probably be fine. Royal Mail is usually very quick by my standards, compared to experience with USPS, but things happen. An extra day would be totally understandable.

This time, though, it got delayed an extra day in shipping, and then Thursday I found a slip through the door saying it wouldn’t fit through the slot. When I was home, awake, and listening for the door because I was hoping to get my tortillas. So yeah, I had to question if they just didn’t knock again.

But OK, these things do happen sometimes. Like it or not. I knew there was no way I could reasonably get myself to the postal depot the next day to pick it up, so I immediately went on the website to arrange redelivery for Saturday, the earliest possible. That was maybe pushing it for fresh bread with an extra day in shipping in hot weather, but what are you going to do?

So then I basically listened for the door all day Saturday, on like 4 hours sleep. (Mr. C was off gaming, so I was on my own after about 10:30.) Sometimes they’ll do an afternoon delivery on Saturdays, but I was not that optimistic after it didn’t come in the morning. No attempt at redelivery.

It did finally show up today, Monday. When I was expecting it the previous Thursday.

Did I mention the heatwave? Yeah, we’re in the middle of one of those, in a climate damp enough that things will mold before you know it under more usual conditions. Some of the previous tortillas have molded on me within a couple of days, when I didn’t get the rest into the freezer quickly enough. I’m also pretty allergic to molds, so I’m almost tempted to just throw it away unopened–but too stubborn and bothered by food waste to actually do it 🙄

I really don’t deal that well with disruptions at all, especially with the severely limited spoons available these days. And I am very aware that some people are probably rolling their eyes reading this. It also doesn’t help when it’s something hard to get which you’ve been looking forward to. While having some disability-related food insecurity problems, besides the extra frustration over things like not being able to get to the depot which used to be within easy walking distance. The heat overload isn’t helping me feel better about anything right now, either.

I just get very frustrated sometimes. Guess that about covers it.

Talk about should never be necessary, but I do have to wish that insulins were available that way. Nope, it’s (totally inappropriate) metformin or nothing. What a surprise, I had to look into options there 😬

I still get such anxiety problems every single time I have to request a prescription through Dodgy Online Consulting Place. That’s been a monthly thing for a while now, and only a couple of times has anything gone wrong. (Including when I had to find a different one a few months back, after the other one had some accreditation problems specifically around pain meds :-|)

Don’t get me wrong, I’m very glad that I found out this is even an option here. But, there is always the potential for problems, and I do resent being placed in a position where my best/only really feasible option for treating several rather serious health issues is to rely on Dodgy Online Consulting.

Thankfully paying out of pocket for pain meds, BCPs for Cramp Hell, and asthma inhalers is not a major barrier now, unlike for too many other people in similar positions. (And drug costs really are way lower baseline than back home.) But, nobody should need to do that. At all.

Once again, if I thought any of the others would be better to deal with? I would totally ditch HSBC.

Just had another lovely debit card declined episode, popping out to the store up the street before early Sunday closing. There should be at least £300 in the account, so I guess it must be their faulty fucking fraud protection flagging the account AGAIN. For no apparent reason.

There has literally never been a real problem, but I’m lucky to go a few months without that account or my credit card getting blocked. Rarely using the credit card probably helps with that, but the debit card is always a puzzler. For a while, using it on Google Play or Amazon usually got it flagged, but that’s the only “suspicious” pattern I have ever managed to work out there.

This time was extra embarrassing since I had about £5 less cash than the total, so I was there shuffling for change and had to get them to void a couple of items. And of course clogged that checkout up when they were trying to get everyone out to close. I was afraid to even try another card right then.

Hoping it will start working again on its own, like has happened before a few times. Since voice calls are a nightmare for my HOH ass, and that’s the only real way to try to get them to unblock things. Last time I tried using relay dealing with them, it was really not a good experience at all and they almost made me go to my assigned branch in person to straighten it out. (At Canary Wharf, when I am practically housebound these days.) The relay person was rude, assuming I couldn’t hear her at all, and the call center person obviously didn’t want to deal with relay at all.

So of course I fight feeling like a total fuckup at adulting, over their accessibility problems.

We’ll have to see, though.. Worst case, I guess it’s cash for a while. Which is inconvenient for Mr. C too, because guess who keeps needing to stop for some? And hopefully it would let me transfer some of that £300, as a decent chunk of the household budget 😬

It would just be really nice if I could depend on consistently having access to the money in my account. That doesn’t seem like an unreasonable expectation.

They are of course totally down with money laundering (and that’s another case to get some official attention…) But sure, they can make a show of doing something about petty fraud by repeatedly blocking smaller customers’ access to their own money, and making them scrounge for change at the grocery store checkout 😒

Another of those times that the damned scrupulosity isn’t making anything else easier.

One added bit of fun with those weird cold episodes? They also leave me extremely weak and shaky, more than woth most flu. Not so fun, on its own.

But, of course I had some other plans to try and get some work done tonight. (In this case, an aquarium water change. Again.) Not a reasonable plan right now, all else considered. Feeling like I’m going to pass out is a problem when I start in way stronger than this, and it’s taking a while to recover tonight.

So yeah, not only am I a lazy POS who doesn’t care about the fish even after killing Canary? I’m obviously faking being sick at all as an excuse for being such a lazy POS.

I know that’s not right, but it doesn’t matter. (Seriously, no comments to that effect needed. I know it’s messed up.)

These stupid OCD loops are also of course harder to deal with when my health situation is bad and there’s basically no energy left for that. Kicking people while they’re down, to make things that much more awesome.

I try not to complain about things nobody can really do anything about, but it does get hard to take sometimes. So I can feel guilty about venting too 😩