please help me survive

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hey, i’m åsa, an 18yo german individual. i’m severely mentally ill, but the mental illness most important for this post is anorexia nervosa. i’m trying to enter remission for it, but i do not have a therapist atm, so i’m p much all by myself. i am in desperate need of groceries, of safe foods, and my dad is usually responsible for providing those. however, we have been arguing about an old hospital bill of 200€, which i cannot pay. 

i am looking for a job as a tutor, because that is one of the few things i can do alongside school and with a mental illness, and to pay the bill, but right now i cannot pay and he refuses to. due to this argument, we have also been arguing about groceries, and he told me i was “too expensive”, and that was all he said on the topic, not going grocery/food shopping with me. 

so i am asking for donations in order to buy myself food and other necessities, so that i will not literally die of anorexia. anything i receive that does not go towards groceries will go towards the hospital bill, so that i will not get in legal troubles for it. right now, without the groceries, i have enough to last me about a week, and after that, if my dad has not calmed down, i will only be able to eat in the weekends at my grandmother, and maybe once a week at my mother’s. that is way too little for anyone, let alone for someone trying to recover from anorexia.

my paypal is paypal.me/aasab / my email is jembach@t-online.de . in return i am able to offer help with german, latin grammar, or English. i could also write poems. thank you