Trigger warning ED ………………………………………………. I just wanted to ask if you would mind sharing the ways you learned to get past your ED and be ok? I’m maybe on the brink of a relapse because life is hard and I never really got better I just got good at band aids and you seem like you really have your shit together and I didn’t know you’d struggled w ED in the past so I just wondered.

hotcommunist:

Honestly??

Stop giving a fuck.

Force yourself not to give a fuck. Go for a short walk (no more than 15 min) to offset the feelings of oh no calories aaaaa and get a snack.

An unhealthy snack.

Yeah that’s right. A treat, bitch. A cookie, a cake, a big old sandwich. Something to throw yourself in at the deep end.

Don’t stare at yourself in the mirror beyond a quick 5 second check over of your outfit.

Stop caring about your clothes and how big or small they make you look. Make outfits by laying them out rather than putting them on your body.

Think of your body by means of what it can do rather than how it looks. You’re walking around and shit??? That’s great. Feel the breeze in your hair. Go out in the rain and listen to it fall against your umbrella and touch some plants and shit. You’re breathing and feeling stuff and your ed can’t take that.

Forgive yourself. I can’t emphasise that enough. Binging on food or having relapses doesn’t mean you’ve failed recovery. It’s less upward slope and more a wiggly slowly upwards line.

Take up a portable hobby. By that I mean something you can carry about in your backpack. A sketch book or knitting or a puzzle book. Make a point of doing it when you feel a bout of paranoia or Bad Feelings. Force yourself to concentrate really hard on it and not the intrusive thoughts.

But yeah, stop giving a fuck about your looks, your clothes. Work up to three meals a day. Treat yourself to delicious schnacks.

Wrestle your ed demons that take the form of vipers, and stamp on them as saints do, cast in plaster and crushed underfoot. Flatten them and be the saviour of yourself in your very own divine smiting.