Time for another attack of feeling like a shitty absentee relative, but that’s been weird again with the holiday season anyway. Plus the recent anniversary of my mom’s death.
Crappy as I end up feeling about it sometimes, there are reasons I haven’t been in touch with my uncle and them for a while now.
But, whatever other problems I may have there? I really am glad that those kids are doing well. The “kids” who are both 25+ now, but old habits 🙄
I do end up feeling like a bigger fuckup by comparison sometimes, reminded by both of them probably having finished grad school by now. But, I am very glad they’ve had an easier time in some ways. Not only “just” not being as obviously disabled, but with a lot more support and resources to help them do stuff like succeed better in formal education. The financial security alone has no doubt helped immensely, but that’s only part of it.
My uncle may irk the hell out of me sometimes, but he and his wife have also done so much better at keeping a way more stable, non-abusive home environment going. A pretty big difference, right there.
And I am so glad for my cousins that they just have not grown up with some of the multigenerational shit affecting them as much. Hoping it’s stopped there for good.







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